Good morning all!
They say confession is good for the soul right? Well, I am hoping so because I need to do so. Why should I confess to all of you? I mean I could keep on truckn’ the way things are and you all would not be the wiser. Am I right? But would you really? I mean I think you would see a difference in my writing, in how I present things, stuff like that.
So, what could be this huge confession? Well, this week I have been…what is the word I am looking for? Blah, just here, just going through the motions, I still can’t think of the word I need. There is a word I can’t think it. I need to get back to me. I just don’t feel like me right now. I have let my gaming take me away from God.
I don’t know if you all know this but I am a gaming nerd. I like to play Massive Multiplayer Online Role Playing Games (MMORPG), I play a few of them off and on. I just found 2 city-builder games that I have been playing so that has taken my time away. I have an addictive personality, I’ve known this for awhile now and that is one thing I must always be aware of.
What does addictive personality mean? It means that I can get addicted to things rather quickly and forget about my normal everyday things. It isn’t just gaming I get addicted to, it is much more than that. I found out about this because of my younger days. I will tell you about that story one day. I don’t think today is the day. I need accountability that is one reason I have this blog. I am doing a horrible job of doing stuff.
I was doing my daily devotions up till Monday and now I am so far behind I use the excuse that I can never catch up since it’s on an app and it shows what day your on. My book came in for the PWOC Bible study and they are up to chapter 5 for 2 week from Tuesday of this week and I’m using an excuse that I will never read up to that. Then the Thrive study I am using that it’s online I can skim it and take it easy, they will never know!
I know! That is what is bothering me! I want to do these Bible studies and I am just making excuse after excuse. How horrible is that? I need to set my alarm every morning and do my devotions at that time in my room before I do anything else. I need to get a journal and write down the things I learn. I have to do this, I need to do this. How else am I going to be the Christian I need to be? How am I going to show my son that God loves him, and he needs to turn back to God?
I am putting extra pressure on myself, I am saying I need to do extra stuff. I don’t have to do the extra stuff I have! I need to just put the extra things that I have in my head that I feel I need to do for the blog and put those aside and focus on God and what He wants me to do.
On Monday you will see that change, I know that it will not be an overnight change. I will try my hardest to do that change, it will be hard but I know that I have the support of you guys and I know I will have my cheerleaders! I love my cheerleaders!